Seems so strange sometimes....

Sometimes it just seems a little weird.... Almost like I don't know really how to explain it. So the other night I went out to take the trash to the garbage can and put the recycle in the bins. When I came in I was going to the park it on the sofa for a little bit to watch a show I'd recorded earlier in the evening. As I was coming from the kitchen into the livingroom I walked passed the window in the dining room. I could see the palm tree behind my house blowing in the night sky..... It was the strangest feeling. Almost like I shouldn't be here, I don't know how else to tell you about it.

Hawaii is such a beautiful place and I'm so thankful to be blessed to be living in this island paradise but I sometimes find myself having this strange feeling like I'm only "visiting". Maybe on vacation or something... and then I have this other feeling almost a feeling of guilt because the girls and I are here in this beautiful place, enjoying the island life while hubby is half way around the world in Iraq. Like we shouldn't be enjoying it without him. I KNOW in my heart and in my mind that he wouldn't want me to feel this way. But sometimes I just can't help it... that feeling creeps into my mind.

We are counting the days until he's here with us again and our family is whole once more. Can't wait for him to get to be here and for us to spend time venturing around through this island paradise making memories to last forever. Memories we will surely look back on with fondness once we have to leave.... I pray that God will allow us to spend a long time here enjoying His beauty.